*i deleted this part*
So, the reason why I'm busy now is because of the Youth Sunday presentation that I'm assigned to make. Wee... Just so I could keep ya reading, here's from my latest entry on my Friendster Blog:
I haven’t been myself lately, and I just blogged out of my own lust for fame around the blogosphere- scattering my name all over the internet to get my website some unique visitors and making a lot of friends and comments on my own blog entries. I have forgotten the real reason why I chose to keep a blog. I have forgotten what I really wanted my blogs to be: I want these blogs to shout how Great the Lord is. I want to include in every page the name of the Lord. I want to reach out to people around the world by means of the internet connection. Does it sound insane? Well, I am serious. I have forgotten that this was the main goal of my website. I have forgotten what the Lord has told me.
I had been leading a weekly devotion. I had been attending cell group meetings, and worship celebrations and youth services. I had been leading, together with the worship team, the congregation to shout praises to the Lord every sunday. I had been a thick-faced sinner. I acted as if God and I still had the burning relationship. I faked everything else. I thought that being active ’round the church would make me closer and closer to my God, but somehow it made me even worse. Being alone at home with the computer on, enjoying the internet connection and using it for other purposes- it just didnt seem right. I watched too much anime, slept late at night, and didnt do anything productive around the house. I just sat back, ate, and surfed the net. Now I consider myself a lazy pig waiting to be punished.
I thought that just by doing all the stuff at church would maintain my relationship with God even if I dont talk to Him. I was wrong. I was completely wrong. I abandoned God, and that was my loss. Looking back, I saw that I was making a 360-degree turn from where I was before. It was the past, haunting me. Everything else was so easy for me these days. I had no problems. I thought I didnt need God because I passed the exams, I had money, etc. Now I’m going “back to normal”. How sad it is that normalcy for me was going back to the way I used to live before I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior.
But that was how I found out that a huge part of me was missing. No, not a huge part… everything I had was missing. I tried eating lots of food to fill in the emptiness, but the emptiness wasnt in the stomach. I tried studying and reading, but the emptiness wasnt in the head. I had my own heart broken for missing God. I was looking for God. He was there, but I was far.
Now I have been slapped back to reality through what Kuya Jamer had said earlier this morning. Everything had hit me because I was really idle. I was aware that I was, but it was really crazy. I was really crazy.
I was like this back then, when I still havent heard about the Good News. When I was not yet a Christian. I wouldnt want to be like how I was back then. I was annoying, too proud, too…stupid. I didnt read the Bible (I didnt even know there was a book called Malachi). And now I was forgetting all the verses I memorized. I even forgot my favorite verse!
I was also wondering why nothing was happening to my friends as I was leading them in devotion every saturday. And now I realized that I cannot be able to lead my friends to the Lord if I am weak in faith. K.Jamer said if one is weak in faith, then his ministry would likely be ineffective. So yeah, God answered my questions.
Now I would like to commit myself to the Lord once again. Here’s a song that I dedicate to the Lord:
FIRE BURNS
Jon Owens
Don’t wanna go back Lord
to the way I used to live
the way I used to live
I won’t go back Lord
to the way I used to be
before you rescue me..
I will not stop
til’ every tribe and nation
bows before You..
I will not stop
til’ they all see your glory
see your glory..
Lift up your eyes to see
The glory of the Lord is on the earth
Arise.. Arise.. Arise..
CHORUS
Your Fire Burns within me
Burn within me with your fire
BRIDGEA
rise generation no longer forsaken
Arise, Arise, Arise
Labels: christian, church, lovelife
Monday, October 20, 2008 Monday, October 20, 2008
Mixed Thoughts on a Blog Post
I have SO much to blog about! :)
LOL! My Lolo's so weird...(and old).
Anyway, my bestfriend Katie was here at home last night. We had a sleepover. :) I bought Doritos and Pringles. That was my supper last night. Haha.. Of course, who knows Jungle Juice? The jumbo juice that tastes really good? I love it. We drank Jungle Juice. Hihi. :))
We watched the anime Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge (The Wallflower) online. It's so freakin' cool (and crazy)!!! I urge you all to watch it cause it's very cute cute cute. :)) Haha... Then after that the connection was really poor so we had to give up and just watch Wall E on DVD. Naaww... cute wall e. I like the 'Pizza plants' and the hyperjump. LOL.
Katie also bought me a Hillsong shirt!!! (Thanks, KT! ;D) We wore it earlier this afternoon because we had a worship seminar. Here are some pictures. I really enjoyed it though my head and eyes were aching:
Hillsong Shirts
Worship Leaders!
Sleepover!
I'm very happy because I learned a lot of things regarding worship today. They say I should be exposing myself already (I'd like to be a worship leader, I think. Haha! jk) in front of the church during sundays. Well, I would do that. We're gonna have this Youth Sunday (the youth will prepare everything for the sunday service), and together with Katie I'm gonna lead the congregation to worship. Yayayay!:)
And another thing: There's gonna be a movie called UPCAT! Haha.. It was done by a UPLB devcom student, I think. I saw it on YouTube. *clapclap* Yay for University of Pahirap! I think it's gonna be out on Dec 3-18 2008, Robinson's Galleria. Idk. Just read it from somewhere.
Have I mentioned Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge already? :) Oh yea I did. :)
Oh yea, this is about Twilight. I haven't read the book yet, but I have touched one already. Haha! I went to the mall and saw it. I have seen that a couple of times, but I didnt know it was the book that everyone was talking about. I was about to buy it, like, a year ago. But I bought a different book instead. Is it really that good? Everybody's crazy about Edward Cullen.
Edward Cullen. Sweet. Girls go eek. Buuut.. why? : I havent read it yet. zomgosh.
But I did have a crush on a fictional guy before. Who among you guys have already read The Catcher in the Rye? It's everywhere! It looks so plain, but dont ever judge a book by its cover. LOL. It's about a highschool kickout who does random stuff. His dream was to catch people who would jump over a cliff. He's weird, honest, SWEET. :))
I first saw that book from my bro. He was required to read it and make a reaction paper about it. I saw it on the ground and then I thought it was boring. I mean, the cover is just white and then the Title is in the middle. It's just so freaking boring. It had no art on the cover. So I just tossed it and the surfed the net.
But FYI, Gerard Way (vocals, My Chemical Romance) is my forever crush. I read from somewhere that The Catcher in the Rye is his favorite book!!! OMG! So then I ran upstairs and read the book. I found it easy to love. Now, Gerard and I share the same favorite book. LOL!!!
Hahaha.. That was cheesy of me to share that. Did you read this whole post? Then I love you. :) Hihihi.. Bloghopping time!!!
P.S.
I have a plan to make this RandomPinay shirt for my personal use. Hope I would be able to do it!...
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Lolo: Ano ba 'to? Saan ang film nito?
Kuya: A, wala pong film yan. Digicam yan.
Lolo: Walang film? Aba! (kutingting ng cam)
Kuya: Anong sinisilip nyo jan?
Lolo: Yung silipan!
Kuya: Di na sinisilip yan. Ayan sa likod nyo makikita.
Lolo: Aba oo nga no! E di pwede kong piktyuran sarili ko?
Kuya: Pwede...
Lolo: (poses for the camera then clicks the shutter button) Nyahaha!
LOL! My Lolo's so weird...(and old).
Anyway, my bestfriend Katie was here at home last night. We had a sleepover. :) I bought Doritos and Pringles. That was my supper last night. Haha.. Of course, who knows Jungle Juice? The jumbo juice that tastes really good? I love it. We drank Jungle Juice. Hihi. :))
We watched the anime Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge (The Wallflower) online. It's so freakin' cool (and crazy)!!! I urge you all to watch it cause it's very cute cute cute. :)) Haha... Then after that the connection was really poor so we had to give up and just watch Wall E on DVD. Naaww... cute wall e. I like the 'Pizza plants' and the hyperjump. LOL.
Katie also bought me a Hillsong shirt!!! (Thanks, KT! ;D) We wore it earlier this afternoon because we had a worship seminar. Here are some pictures. I really enjoyed it though my head and eyes were aching:
Hillsong Shirts
Worship Leaders!
Sleepover!
I'm very happy because I learned a lot of things regarding worship today. They say I should be exposing myself already (I'd like to be a worship leader, I think. Haha! jk) in front of the church during sundays. Well, I would do that. We're gonna have this Youth Sunday (the youth will prepare everything for the sunday service), and together with Katie I'm gonna lead the congregation to worship. Yayayay!:)
And another thing: There's gonna be a movie called UPCAT! Haha.. It was done by a UPLB devcom student, I think. I saw it on YouTube. *clapclap* Yay for University of Pahirap! I think it's gonna be out on Dec 3-18 2008, Robinson's Galleria. Idk. Just read it from somewhere.
Have I mentioned Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge already? :) Oh yea I did. :)
Oh yea, this is about Twilight. I haven't read the book yet, but I have touched one already. Haha! I went to the mall and saw it. I have seen that a couple of times, but I didnt know it was the book that everyone was talking about. I was about to buy it, like, a year ago. But I bought a different book instead. Is it really that good? Everybody's crazy about Edward Cullen.
Edward Cullen. Sweet. Girls go eek. Buuut.. why? : I havent read it yet. zomgosh.
But I did have a crush on a fictional guy before. Who among you guys have already read The Catcher in the Rye? It's everywhere! It looks so plain, but dont ever judge a book by its cover. LOL. It's about a highschool kickout who does random stuff. His dream was to catch people who would jump over a cliff. He's weird, honest, SWEET. :))
I first saw that book from my bro. He was required to read it and make a reaction paper about it. I saw it on the ground and then I thought it was boring. I mean, the cover is just white and then the Title is in the middle. It's just so freaking boring. It had no art on the cover. So I just tossed it and the surfed the net.
But FYI, Gerard Way (vocals, My Chemical Romance) is my forever crush. I read from somewhere that The Catcher in the Rye is his favorite book!!! OMG! So then I ran upstairs and read the book. I found it easy to love. Now, Gerard and I share the same favorite book. LOL!!!
Hahaha.. That was cheesy of me to share that. Did you read this whole post? Then I love you. :) Hihihi.. Bloghopping time!!!
P.S.
I have a plan to make this RandomPinay shirt for my personal use. Hope I would be able to do it!
Labels: cartoons, christian, church, college, random thoughts
Thursday, October 16, 2008 Thursday, October 16, 2008
Temptations
It's still very early. I woke up 2 hours earlier than I used to. :p
Last night, I was really bothered by my conscience. I lied to my mom about my suitor. Well, I was a bad girl. She allowed him to court me because of my lie. So I went to church to ask God for help.
Good thing the lesson was about temptation. I fell for a temptation, which was to rush things and snag a boyfriend (which isnt a LAPTOP) immediately. I was probably thirsty for more attention because my parents are abroad and my brother is always busy (my friends have their own lives too). So I failed to fight the devil. :(
Then the preaching was about the solutions given by God when we get stuck into the danger of temptation. when you fall into temptation, you're not fighting Satan, rather you're fighting YOURSELF. So it's a war between yourself and you.
But only God alone has the solution to the problem. If you pray, He will tell you what to do. Of course, we also have to seek help from God's people. We need spiritual guidance as well. We need to cling to God, too. God is very kind, you know. And if you let God rule, you will forever be at peace!
So there. I was really nervous then I signed in to Yahoo Messenger. My sister was online. I asked if my mom was there. That was when she said, "Ako 'to. Bakit?"
Then I confessed everything. She didn't get mad, imagine that. What a great mom! But she took back her words last night. The guy isnt allowed to court me anymore. I just obeyed her. I told the guy. The guy isnt texting back anymore.
Of course, it hurts so much to tell that to the one I like. But what hurts even more is lying to my mom, hurting MY GOD. Because I have no authority over myself. God is the one who's controlling my life.
This is a story of a young boy and his dad. They had a rule at the house: Nobody will leave the table unless everyone is finished. But one day, the youngest kid tried to escape. They were still eating. The father caught him:
So even when I twitch in pain, that'll be okay in the end. :D
Got that? :)...
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Last night, I was really bothered by my conscience. I lied to my mom about my suitor. Well, I was a bad girl. She allowed him to court me because of my lie. So I went to church to ask God for help.
Good thing the lesson was about temptation. I fell for a temptation, which was to rush things and snag a boyfriend (which isnt a LAPTOP) immediately. I was probably thirsty for more attention because my parents are abroad and my brother is always busy (my friends have their own lives too). So I failed to fight the devil. :(
Then the preaching was about the solutions given by God when we get stuck into the danger of temptation. when you fall into temptation, you're not fighting Satan, rather you're fighting YOURSELF. So it's a war between yourself and you.
But only God alone has the solution to the problem. If you pray, He will tell you what to do. Of course, we also have to seek help from God's people. We need spiritual guidance as well. We need to cling to God, too. God is very kind, you know. And if you let God rule, you will forever be at peace!
So there. I was really nervous then I signed in to Yahoo Messenger. My sister was online. I asked if my mom was there. That was when she said, "Ako 'to. Bakit?"
Then I confessed everything. She didn't get mad, imagine that. What a great mom! But she took back her words last night. The guy isnt allowed to court me anymore. I just obeyed her. I told the guy. The guy isnt texting back anymore.
Of course, it hurts so much to tell that to the one I like. But what hurts even more is lying to my mom, hurting MY GOD. Because I have no authority over myself. God is the one who's controlling my life.
This is a story of a young boy and his dad. They had a rule at the house: Nobody will leave the table unless everyone is finished. But one day, the youngest kid tried to escape. They were still eating. The father caught him:
I'm like this kid a lot of times. I know that what I'm doing is bad, but I still do it because I want it. I'm tempted. And I also say that God and I are the ones who take over. NO, that's not the right thing to do. God is the one who rules my life.Dad: What's the matter? Where are you going?
Kid: I'm gonna watch TV.
Father: But you're not supposed to.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: But we have a rule here.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: But that's a bad thing.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: Wait a minute, but who's the boss here in this house?
Kid: Well...YOU AND ME, DAD!
So even when I twitch in pain, that'll be okay in the end. :D
Mabigat ang pagiging Kristyano, pero hindi pabigat ang pagiging Kristyano.
Got that? :)
Labels: christian, church, family, lovelife
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 Wednesday, September 24, 2008
dreamy
one night, i was sleeping at the dorm, i got this really weird dream. you know, the scene was very terrifying. i was at the village, and there were killers everywhere- even the policemen were afraid of going near them or messing up with their plans. they were after everyone. meaning, i have to stay away from them and hide. i was new at that village, so i didnt know exactly where to hide or what to do. i didnt know everybody, only a few people.
at first i panicked and ran to different houses to ask if i can hide. they didnt mind. they were also hiding, of course. well, that was completely idiotic. i mean, THEY WERE HIDING AT THEIR OWN HOUSE. that wasnt a good idea at all! they could find you at your house, of course. you freakin' live in the freakin' place! anyway, i came in, asked for some food, and left. yeah, i left. it was a stupid house anyway. there wasnt anything in it.
then i started NOT hiding. i started walking casually around, and i looked for the people i know. i saw my blockmate at school, Jasiel. then i started screaming: "jasiel, jasiel! andito ako!"
she looked my way. she was really crying. out of terror, i guess. i wasnt feeling afraid, so i walked towards her. i said, "san ka punta?"
"umalis ka dito. bakit paganyanganyan ka lang samantalang ang damidaming mamamatay-tao?" she replied. i didnt say anything.
then a guy came towards her and practically grabbed her hand. they were running so fast, and jasiel was screaming already. i was shouting, "jasieeel!!!", but i was still standing on my place. i didnt even chase them. then because of the speed of the man holding her, she bumped into several walls causing her head and other parts of her body to be bruised and wounded. her blood were on the walls. then they disappeared from my sight.
then i walked to the sarisari store and stood there for minutes. i was thinking of going home, but i didnt do that probably because i didnt know which way to go. then the lady at the store started screaming and panicking, "takbo! ayan na sila!"
the bad guys came in, running after us. i ran as fast as i could. i lost track of everyone;i was by myself already. or maybe not. someone was chasing me.
i ran so fast! under the bridges, over walls, inside underground tunnels, and he caught me! i was so afraid of him, and he was holding me hand. he had a black mask on his face (like a burglar), and all of his clothes were black. his black gloves on his hand was kinda itchy on the skin. i felt it. he was holding me.
"ano ba??" i said. "bitawan mo nga ako!" then he wasnt saying anything. after 2 minutes, i guess, he gave me a box containing something i didnt know. but i was sure it was a good present. he then left after giving me that. he was wiping his sweat as he went away.
i went out to see the other villagers. they were still panicking and running around. i said,"ano ba kayo! kaya kayo hinahabol nyan may ibibigay lang yan sa inyo!". they didnt pay attention. they remained terrified and they even hated me for saying that. i saw jasiel, too.
"bakit ba sila ganyan e mababait naman yung mga taong nakaitim?" i asked jasiel. she anwered,"ewan ko nga eh."
and that was all! hehe... anyone there willing to interpret the dream? after i woke up i was still thinking of the same dream. i was still thinking about why they were so terrified with the good guys giving nice presents. whatever.
MOVING ON! im sorry i linked other guys here LATE. im staying in laguna and i couldnt check my blog for im really busy at school. and i can bloghop regularly. :(
anyway, im attending Victory Los Banos (church) and i they sang the song Lord of All by i dont know. hehe..its a sweet song. im posting the lyrics here. :]
it said on the site it was from every nation philippines. but they said there were other versions. okayokay. :]
i really love it. so til here! God bless u guys. :]...
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at first i panicked and ran to different houses to ask if i can hide. they didnt mind. they were also hiding, of course. well, that was completely idiotic. i mean, THEY WERE HIDING AT THEIR OWN HOUSE. that wasnt a good idea at all! they could find you at your house, of course. you freakin' live in the freakin' place! anyway, i came in, asked for some food, and left. yeah, i left. it was a stupid house anyway. there wasnt anything in it.
then i started NOT hiding. i started walking casually around, and i looked for the people i know. i saw my blockmate at school, Jasiel. then i started screaming: "jasiel, jasiel! andito ako!"
she looked my way. she was really crying. out of terror, i guess. i wasnt feeling afraid, so i walked towards her. i said, "san ka punta?"
"umalis ka dito. bakit paganyanganyan ka lang samantalang ang damidaming mamamatay-tao?" she replied. i didnt say anything.
then a guy came towards her and practically grabbed her hand. they were running so fast, and jasiel was screaming already. i was shouting, "jasieeel!!!", but i was still standing on my place. i didnt even chase them. then because of the speed of the man holding her, she bumped into several walls causing her head and other parts of her body to be bruised and wounded. her blood were on the walls. then they disappeared from my sight.
then i walked to the sarisari store and stood there for minutes. i was thinking of going home, but i didnt do that probably because i didnt know which way to go. then the lady at the store started screaming and panicking, "takbo! ayan na sila!"
the bad guys came in, running after us. i ran as fast as i could. i lost track of everyone;i was by myself already. or maybe not. someone was chasing me.
i ran so fast! under the bridges, over walls, inside underground tunnels, and he caught me! i was so afraid of him, and he was holding me hand. he had a black mask on his face (like a burglar), and all of his clothes were black. his black gloves on his hand was kinda itchy on the skin. i felt it. he was holding me.
"ano ba??" i said. "bitawan mo nga ako!" then he wasnt saying anything. after 2 minutes, i guess, he gave me a box containing something i didnt know. but i was sure it was a good present. he then left after giving me that. he was wiping his sweat as he went away.
i went out to see the other villagers. they were still panicking and running around. i said,"ano ba kayo! kaya kayo hinahabol nyan may ibibigay lang yan sa inyo!". they didnt pay attention. they remained terrified and they even hated me for saying that. i saw jasiel, too.
"bakit ba sila ganyan e mababait naman yung mga taong nakaitim?" i asked jasiel. she anwered,"ewan ko nga eh."
and that was all! hehe... anyone there willing to interpret the dream? after i woke up i was still thinking of the same dream. i was still thinking about why they were so terrified with the good guys giving nice presents. whatever.
MOVING ON! im sorry i linked other guys here LATE. im staying in laguna and i couldnt check my blog for im really busy at school. and i can bloghop regularly. :(
anyway, im attending Victory Los Banos (church) and i they sang the song Lord of All by i dont know. hehe..its a sweet song. im posting the lyrics here. :]
I surrender
I will yield
I will bow down
I will live
I will seek You all my days
I will follow all Your Ways
coz You are my Only One
You are my Only One
I want to live for You
be glorified forever
My life will declare
You alone are Lord
Everything of me
use it for Your glory
That everyone will see, will hear, will know
YOU ARE LORD OF ALL
I will worship
I will praise
I will lift up YOur holy Name
I will give You
all the glory
All the honor
DUE YOUR NAME
Coz You are my Only One
You are my Only One
I want to live for YOu
be glorified forever
My life will declare
That You alone are Lord
Everything of me
Use it for Your glory
that everyone will see, will hear, will know
YOU ARE LORD OF ALL
YOU ARE LORD OF ALL
Here I am Lord mold me
Here I am Lord use me
Here I am Lord send me
FOR YOUR GLORY
it said on the site it was from every nation philippines. but they said there were other versions. okayokay. :]
i really love it. so til here! God bless u guys. :]
Friday, July 4, 2008 Friday, July 04, 2008
the EX
i saw my ex-boyfriend today. it's awful.
it's not that i still like him. it's just that i feel very ashamed of myself for being his exgirlfriend. i mean, he was the worst thing that ever happened to me..so far. haha.. naah, just exaggerating.
maybe when you get to see him, you'll freak out and tell me, "crazy, crazy chiui! whyd you let go of that handsome chunk of a hunk?!". LIKE 'EW!'. you dont know what youre saying. yeah, he may look like an indian model to you (hehe). maybe a model of what, a garden hose? he sure is goodlooking, but we look deep deep down inside, right?:]
first, when he calls you on the phone, he will hang up without saying 'bye'. there'll be the sound 'beep beep beep'. thats it. he's not there anymore. what a "gentleman".
second, he'd lie about his textmates. one time he said he had to switch to his old simcard because his brother's gonna call (he was using smart then. he bought a globe simcard just to text me), but it took him one whole day using that old simcard. i was all 'what the crap?'. i wanted to tell him "do you think im dumb? why would i believe you, you jerk? one phone call wouldnt last for a whole day. i know it when you receive phone calls, you go out of the house! but im your neighbor, and i spent the whole day beside my window. all you do outside is smoke and guess what, i saw you smile while you were texting outside. thats pretty unusual for me. oh yeah, i remember. in the past, you were an 8-timer. it would be pretty hard for you to change immediately. after breaking up with those eight, you would change? you dont even like Jesus. how would you ever do that? thats...i dont know how ill call that."
yeah. he laughed at me for being a christian. thats the reason why i thought more than twice about him. i wanted to approach my parents. they hated my ex. but i wasnt that mature before. i still sticked to that guy. crazy, insane me.
third, he's a pervert. period.
i really thank God we only lasted for one week. if not, i couldve died.
when we broke up, i cried in front of my churchmates. what a fool i mustve been. thanks to my church!:))))) now im wondering why he's still alive and still washing the car like he used to. haha..kidding. i hope he'd get to know Jesus one day.
after all my very very very very very bad experiences with boys, ive decided to take a break. hehe.. i love ryan ross now! hahaha! btw, ryan ross is a guitarist from panic!at the disco.:]
the guy i have prayed for is like this: (yes!) a christian (not the 'dead' christian. i like christian guys on fire!), then he would be taller than me (of course!! im so short), medyo good in school (hehe), a gentleman, patient, pretty responsible (cause im pretty irresponsible. :[), honest, and really inlove with me. yii..very cheesy. haha. i also prayed to God that i hope he'd be handsome. uh..at least in my eyes?:] ah..all guys are handsome pala. haha..i jutst prayed that the guy would be my type.:]
no time to think about now. now my boyfriend would be my 'studies'. grabe. i want to break up with 'him' na. hahahaha...
im pretty bored with the love stuff. maybe because i had been a flirt all my life..until Jesus came to change my life. now He's taking over me. yes. im dead. dead from my old self.
really nice. it sounds like a Christian ghost story. the Holy Ghost, right? hehe.. the only difference is that devil ghost stories are creepy, but this kind of ghost story is uplifting. :] now hey there, dead people.:]
now ive got a song for my ex. here you go. just hit play to listen:
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it's not that i still like him. it's just that i feel very ashamed of myself for being his exgirlfriend. i mean, he was the worst thing that ever happened to me..so far. haha.. naah, just exaggerating.
maybe when you get to see him, you'll freak out and tell me, "crazy, crazy chiui! whyd you let go of that handsome chunk of a hunk?!". LIKE 'EW!'. you dont know what youre saying. yeah, he may look like an indian model to you (hehe). maybe a model of what, a garden hose? he sure is goodlooking, but we look deep deep down inside, right?:]
first, when he calls you on the phone, he will hang up without saying 'bye'. there'll be the sound 'beep beep beep'. thats it. he's not there anymore. what a "gentleman".
second, he'd lie about his textmates. one time he said he had to switch to his old simcard because his brother's gonna call (he was using smart then. he bought a globe simcard just to text me), but it took him one whole day using that old simcard. i was all 'what the crap?'. i wanted to tell him "do you think im dumb? why would i believe you, you jerk? one phone call wouldnt last for a whole day. i know it when you receive phone calls, you go out of the house! but im your neighbor, and i spent the whole day beside my window. all you do outside is smoke and guess what, i saw you smile while you were texting outside. thats pretty unusual for me. oh yeah, i remember. in the past, you were an 8-timer. it would be pretty hard for you to change immediately. after breaking up with those eight, you would change? you dont even like Jesus. how would you ever do that? thats...i dont know how ill call that."
yeah. he laughed at me for being a christian. thats the reason why i thought more than twice about him. i wanted to approach my parents. they hated my ex. but i wasnt that mature before. i still sticked to that guy. crazy, insane me.
third, he's a pervert. period.
i really thank God we only lasted for one week. if not, i couldve died.
when we broke up, i cried in front of my churchmates. what a fool i mustve been. thanks to my church!:))))) now im wondering why he's still alive and still washing the car like he used to. haha..kidding. i hope he'd get to know Jesus one day.
after all my very very very very very bad experiences with boys, ive decided to take a break. hehe.. i love ryan ross now! hahaha! btw, ryan ross is a guitarist from panic!at the disco.:]
the guy i have prayed for is like this: (yes!) a christian (not the 'dead' christian. i like christian guys on fire!), then he would be taller than me (of course!! im so short), medyo good in school (hehe), a gentleman, patient, pretty responsible (cause im pretty irresponsible. :[), honest, and really inlove with me. yii..very cheesy. haha. i also prayed to God that i hope he'd be handsome. uh..at least in my eyes?:] ah..all guys are handsome pala. haha..i jutst prayed that the guy would be my type.:]
no time to think about now. now my boyfriend would be my 'studies'. grabe. i want to break up with 'him' na. hahahaha...
im pretty bored with the love stuff. maybe because i had been a flirt all my life..until Jesus came to change my life. now He's taking over me. yes. im dead. dead from my old self.
really nice. it sounds like a Christian ghost story. the Holy Ghost, right? hehe.. the only difference is that devil ghost stories are creepy, but this kind of ghost story is uplifting. :] now hey there, dead people.:]
now ive got a song for my ex. here you go. just hit play to listen:
A FAVOR HOUSE ATLANTIC
Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you
Good eye, sniper
Here I'll shoot, and you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
The lots of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Run quick, they're behind us
Didn't think we'd ever make it
This close to safety in one piece
Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
Save us from sleep and what we are
Good eye, sniper
Now I shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
The loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
The words you scribbled on the walls
The loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Labels: christian, church, lovelife
Thursday, June 5, 2008 Thursday, June 05, 2008
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finally! dvbs is over! yesterday was the last day (and graduation day) of the dvbs students. i feel very tired and at the same time very sad. im gonna miss the kids. i loved hanging around the preschool kids. i was assigned to look after them. they were very makulit, but they were all nice and cute. i think their generation is different now. i cant explain it, but if you try knowing them, you'll figure it out yourself.
im too lazy to put all of their pictures here, probably because im tired. i went to the hospital to have myself xray-ed, then i went to sm. i want to buy lots of books, especially that 'lord of the flies'. anyone who knows that? is it good? hahaha..
well..earlier i went to eat at pizza hut. man, i ate 3 slices of meat lovers pizza!man, it was good! hehe..next time im gonna try 3-cheese pizza.harhar.
gotta go bloghopping. ill post again tomorrow!...
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im too lazy to put all of their pictures here, probably because im tired. i went to the hospital to have myself xray-ed, then i went to sm. i want to buy lots of books, especially that 'lord of the flies'. anyone who knows that? is it good? hahaha..
well..earlier i went to eat at pizza hut. man, i ate 3 slices of meat lovers pizza!man, it was good! hehe..next time im gonna try 3-cheese pizza.harhar.
gotta go bloghopping. ill post again tomorrow!
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