It's still very early. I woke up 2 hours earlier than I used to. :p

Last night, I was really bothered by my conscience. I lied to my mom about my suitor. Well, I was a bad girl. She allowed him to court me because of my lie. So I went to church to ask God for help.

Good thing the lesson was about temptation. I fell for a temptation, which was to rush things and snag a boyfriend (which isnt a LAPTOP) immediately. I was probably thirsty for more attention because my parents are abroad and my brother is always busy (my friends have their own lives too). So I failed to fight the devil. :(

Then the preaching was about the solutions given by God when we get stuck into the danger of temptation. when you fall into temptation, you're not fighting Satan, rather you're fighting YOURSELF. So it's a war between yourself and you.

But only God alone has the solution to the problem. If you pray, He will tell you what to do. Of course, we also have to seek help from God's people. We need spiritual guidance as well. We need to cling to God, too. God is very kind, you know. And if you let God rule, you will forever be at peace!

So there. I was really nervous then I signed in to Yahoo Messenger. My sister was online. I asked if my mom was there. That was when she said, "Ako 'to. Bakit?"

Then I confessed everything. She didn't get mad, imagine that. What a great mom! But she took back her words last night. The guy isnt allowed to court me anymore. I just obeyed her. I told the guy. The guy isnt texting back anymore.

Of course, it hurts so much to tell that to the one I like. But what hurts even more is lying to my mom, hurting MY GOD. Because I have no authority over myself. God is the one who's controlling my life.

This is a story of a young boy and his dad. They had a rule at the house: Nobody will leave the table unless everyone is finished. But one day, the youngest kid tried to escape. They were still eating. The father caught him:

Dad: What's the matter? Where are you going?
Kid: I'm gonna watch TV.
Father: But you're not supposed to.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: But we have a rule here.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: But that's a bad thing.
Kid: I know. But I'm gonna miss my favorite TV show.
Father: Wait a minute, but who's the boss here in this house?
Kid: Well...YOU AND ME, DAD!

I'm like this kid a lot of times. I know that what I'm doing is bad, but I still do it because I want it. I'm tempted. And I also say that God and I are the ones who take over. NO, that's not the right thing to do. God is the one who rules my life.

So even when I twitch in pain, that'll be okay in the end. :D

Mabigat ang pagiging Kristyano, pero hindi pabigat ang pagiging Kristyano.

Got that? :)

Labels: christian, church, family, lovelife

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