it's not that i still like him. it's just that i feel very ashamed of myself for being his exgirlfriend. i mean, he was the worst thing that ever happened to me..so far. haha.. naah, just exaggerating.
maybe when you get to see him, you'll freak out and tell me, "crazy, crazy chiui! whyd you let go of that handsome chunk of a hunk?!". LIKE 'EW!'. you dont know what youre saying. yeah, he may look like an indian model to you (hehe). maybe a model of what, a garden hose? he sure is goodlooking, but we look deep deep down inside, right?:]
first, when he calls you on the phone, he will hang up without saying 'bye'. there'll be the sound 'beep beep beep'. thats it. he's not there anymore. what a "gentleman".
second, he'd lie about his textmates. one time he said he had to switch to his old simcard because his brother's gonna call (he was using smart then. he bought a globe simcard just to text me), but it took him one whole day using that old simcard. i was all 'what the crap?'. i wanted to tell him "do you think im dumb? why would i believe you, you jerk? one phone call wouldnt last for a whole day. i know it when you receive phone calls, you go out of the house! but im your neighbor, and i spent the whole day beside my window. all you do outside is smoke and guess what, i saw you smile while you were texting outside. thats pretty unusual for me. oh yeah, i remember. in the past, you were an 8-timer. it would be pretty hard for you to change immediately. after breaking up with those eight, you would change? you dont even like Jesus. how would you ever do that? thats...i dont know how ill call that."
yeah. he laughed at me for being a christian. thats the reason why i thought more than twice about him. i wanted to approach my parents. they hated my ex. but i wasnt that mature before. i still sticked to that guy. crazy, insane me.
third, he's a pervert. period.
i really thank God we only lasted for one week. if not, i couldve died.
when we broke up, i cried in front of my churchmates. what a fool i mustve been. thanks to my church!:))))) now im wondering why he's still alive and still washing the car like he used to. haha..kidding. i hope he'd get to know Jesus one day.
after all my very very very very very bad experiences with boys, ive decided to take a break. hehe.. i love ryan ross now! hahaha! btw, ryan ross is a guitarist from panic!at the disco.:]
the guy i have prayed for is like this: (yes!) a christian (not the 'dead' christian. i like christian guys on fire!), then he would be taller than me (of course!! im so short), medyo good in school (hehe), a gentleman, patient, pretty responsible (cause im pretty irresponsible. :[), honest, and really inlove with me. yii..very cheesy. haha. i also prayed to God that i hope he'd be handsome. uh..at least in my eyes?:] ah..all guys are handsome pala. haha..i jutst prayed that the guy would be my type.:]
no time to think about now. now my boyfriend would be my 'studies'. grabe. i want to break up with 'him' na. hahahaha...
im pretty bored with the love stuff. maybe because i had been a flirt all my life..until Jesus came to change my life. now He's taking over me. yes. im dead. dead from my old self.
really nice. it sounds like a Christian ghost story. the Holy Ghost, right? hehe.. the only difference is that devil ghost stories are creepy, but this kind of ghost story is uplifting. :] now hey there, dead people.:]
now ive got a song for my ex. here you go. just hit play to listen:
A FAVOR HOUSE ATLANTIC
Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you
Good eye, sniper
Here I'll shoot, and you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
The lots of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Run quick, they're behind us
Didn't think we'd ever make it
This close to safety in one piece
Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
Save us from sleep and what we are
Good eye, sniper
Now I shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
The loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
The words you scribbled on the walls
The loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Labels: christian, church, lovelife
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